Saturday, 11 August 2012

homelands

the august light is dimming earlier these days and the mirror on the floor reflects the window back at itself. i feel a slight sense of panic that all the books are in boxes taped and labelled. im wondering if they can breathe. i picture the shape of their names down their spines; a hundred stories of transitions, not ends. there are still poems in the creases in my bed sheets that im holding off washing until i leave. when it comes to goodbye, i will kiss these walls that stood and stand like silent witnesses having seen me shine and break and render this room small enough to carry, along with all the others that somehow fit together in this ramshackle wondrous home that is me.

(metaphorically speaking)

10 comments:

♥ w o o l f ♥ said...

i should look at the upheaval called moving {and books living in boxes for over eighteen months in this house now, by now} more relaxedly, e.g. in a way that you do, because it makes sense.
but like you say. any homeland is particular.
i love your rich insights though.
n♥

Wingfall at dusk said...

It is so strange leaving a place, exciting but also a little sad. It is as if the walls and floorboards will cry out your name, asking when you will return and missing your unconscious heartbeat and breath. In your dreams you will return. Even these friendships last a lifetime... and, perhaps, more...

ellom said...

"when it comes to goodbye, i will kiss these walls that stood and stand"
x

bobbi said...

I have a very deeep bond with the places where I have lived. there is only one house I don't miss, all the others I feel like I have betrayed and abandoned them. and I'm scare of the day when I'll have to leave this current place, because I love it with all my heart. your writing made me shiver.

v said...

the last days i have been thinking a lot about you and your move!
and if you want to enter the magazine swap there is no timelimit of when to send it out to your swapper, just one time in this autumn : )
let me know if you decide to enter.

when you have the time it would be wonderful to get some recommendations on magazines from you...would love to know your likings because i am sure that they will become mine too : )

good luck with the moving!!

v said...

i LOVE the photo of you in the sidebar!!!

Gracia said...

Delighted to have stumbled by chance across your blog (by way of Anna Emilia's). I like how you describe things, in this post and others too.

Crafty Green Poet said...

goodbyes are always hard, but poetry in the bedsheets is a lovely idea and I'm sure the books can breathe

Nike E. Bottalico said...

most beautiful write...and the books

rain :: said...

you are a shimmering soul....
radiant and glimmering. i am enchanted. <3